So, I was inspired by a wall of graffiti the other day and decided to make a new website about it – devoted to my…um darker, er wilder side. I created the CopyCatFilms site as a way to document my film studies & progress as I gear up my skills to eventually produce some of our original scripts, but along the way its also become my home away from home, a place that I can spout out about anything that I want. I purposely made it me, cuz I’m me and I can’t change that. But as I gear up to figure out what road I shall venture next…I feel it best to preserve a little anonymity for my creative side too. I want to do things that I’ve never dared before…and try to stay as I am at the same time. Its a steady job, but he wants to be a paperback wriiiiiiiter!
And speaking of moving on. Here we go again…trying to find a way to pay the rent, paying student loans, hating my education, trying to decide if moving is the best option. And if moving is the right thing to do, where on earth do we move!? Do we move to yet another neighborhood in Chicago or do we just cut our loses and head for the hills! If so which hills!!? Its such a hard decision. We’ve been here so long that I just want things to work out. We had “nothing” in Nashville, except creative friends and a vibrant community. We had a lousy standard of living but did Improv & had a general blast doing it. Here, we only seem to have good jobs – we can’t even afford the nice apartment anymore so that’s a fleeting moment! Grr, what to do…
I like a lot about our current situation…I have to be honest.
I love our apartment.
I love my group at work.
I love all that we’ve been able to accomplish here.
I love the city, even though I hate how many other people do too.
…and I love Mariela’s homemade popcorn from the kettle! And for that, I plan to marry her, I mean separate but equal marriage, in July. I’d marry her for real though, given the chance. She’s unconventional in every way and inspires me to keep trying.
P.S. We spent last weekend removing my incredible car stereo and had a BLAST. I have been obsessed with car audio since long before getting a driver’s permit. In fact, I had a subwoofer before I had my driver’s permit! Yah, uh hmm. But this…this stereo was about a $7K install, almost 10 years ago, so its very…INVOLVED. Amazingly that stuff is still kickin and I wasn’t about to leave it behind. I also felt that it was kind of a rite of passage for me to remove it all by hand. I’ve paid people to do this shit for years and why should I?? I learned SO MUCH by jumping in and taking it all apart. It was incredible to see the shitty job of “hired professionals” with regard to my Boston Pro tweeters! One of the rear tweeters was just kind of flopping about in the door panel! Took my breath away! The power wiring is ALL great big, fat Monster wiring! I took it ALL. I will say that the amp rack and box are beautifully designed and built like a TANK. (It weighs as much too – we had to sit it down 3 times moving it about 100 feet to storage!)
We removed all four door panels, all interior gutters, the Alpine head unit, two power Fosgate amps, neon, color voltmeter, a capacitor, an amp rack that nearly broke my spirit, Boston Pros, and Boston Rallys!
Yep, so now I DREAM of carefully taking apart our new beauty beu-beu-blue Jettie and putting it all in…I’m serious. Like wet dreams of running wires and carefully removing the dashboard. I’m not a normal girl, but then again – my doctor told me that I am, just this week! Go figure! You betta-run-that-again doc.
P.S.S. This is another thing that I think too much about: Why is it that men get bothered if their girlfriends “become lesbians??” Its never bothered me that several of my previous lovers got married, to men! That’s not a reflection of me, other than no woman being capable of filling my…um shoes. Take it as a compliment. Its all relative!